My Psycho self

Last night, something went terribly wrong with me, again.
As usual I got cranky and moody, and my heart would throbbed solemnly, destroying a fine rainy day, and a wonderful football match night.
What a piece of crap to have this shitfeelings.
Anyways it went uncontrollable and I really felt sick of it.

Then, in the work of God I felt like reading and I came into the next season of this manga that I was following.
Something about this episode that made me think hard, and made myself clear about certain things. Totally changed my perspective on myself, and made me think " Wow, I never thought life could be so simpler, deal with your problems, not making them deal you, just be yourself, shut down your feelings ( for awhile) , concentrate on one thing, and that is your passion, your life, your future, YOU. "

And after that, I felt better, I was cured by my sick self, and I went smiling around in my room, with my arms wide open. Just to exaggerate things more, I was rolling around on my single bed while singing Lady gaga's new song till I fell down and laughed about it and thought of rolling some more while sing of another song ( well that's like too much now!)

The point is, I was better. I feel better. And just by that, people around me, felt even better. I mean if everyone's happy, I don't think there's even some lil time to be sad about anything.

Yes I agree some people have their own problems, but come on, there's nothing in this world you can't do, and by your own choice, it's wether you want it or not. That's all. Still not satisfied?
Okay, you've no idea what I've been through my life, so what the fuck is wrong with you?!

I think, Life is not about being sad or disappointed, it's about what you have in your life that makes you wake up in the morning feeling refreshed, excited, and have a smile on your face when you're goin to bed at night. If you don't know what it is, search for it, with diligence, with your heart.

Honestly, I haven't found what I want in my life, or what I would love to do in or with my life, but it doesn't mean I have to be sad and crappy all the fcking time? Right? Why don't I just go with what so ever is happening, do the best, and well, maybe in time, I'll know what I want. I mean for sure, God wont let me be in err.

It's good that rather than I would be sad about a person that doesn't even mean anything to me,
I should instead be learning about myself, cause I can sometimes, amuse myself ! lol!