It rains of overwhelmed feelings today

I've never felt like this before.
Its like falling in love, but I don't think it's exactly, Love?
I don't know.
I feel happy, not the same kind as when the usual rate of happiness,
but not the most happy either, that you jump on and off the floor,
Just, normally happy.
I feel, alive, in like I can breathe, and think, and do other stuff,
even when I miss you, even when you're not around me.
I feel content. To the state that I don't care anymore about anything
or whatever things even when bad things that'll come,
cause I know, that you'll always be there, to hold my hand when I'm scared,
Or just to see the visible veins running through under my skin.
To tell me that you'll kick their asses, or how dumb some mortals can be.
I feel secure, to know that whatever happens in the future, you'll be there,
smiling, waving your hand at me, or just annoy me to the state that I won't be bother to be angry anymore.
You always know what to do,
or what to say.
I adore you, I cherish you, I salute you to the point that, I trust you with my life.
Just take it. Take it, and do whatever you want.

My hopes and dreams for us?
Is to always be like this.

I want to love you, to the extend that even by death can't do us part.
That's what kind of love that I want.
Not those when it changes the temperature, or seasons when it feels like.
Or the kinds that just based on literation or complexion, or even based on caste in socialization.

I wonder what kind of feeling this is,
I don't think it's really love,
so tell me, how should I really feel for you?