As the world gets old

I got better today. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

It just felt like the whole world is mine! Especially when it rained this evening, everything just went perfect!

I was hungry of course, cause I didn't ate for some days ...

It was great, being sick, and being well again. At least, I can sleep and relax, and get my energy back when I got better. It felt amazing. I feel amazing. It felt like there's nothing I can't do in life. Not anything at all. Wow, where did I get all that stuff? *giggless*

Everything on malaysian channel is so boring. I want to be sick again.

I hate the real world. I dont want to go out if this house. I just want to just stay naive and not know about how corrupted the world is or how money can be so powerful that the sound of an explosion of a bomb somewhere in Afghanistan is just mere nothing.

Oh Lord, I know the world is now coming close to its end, I can understand how you would feel when you see all this stupid things happening to your creations and how stupid your most precious treasures can be. How something so priceless can be worthless, in the end.

Its just so sad, watching this, eventhough I may not be alone. All left for us is what we want to do with our life. And how do we want it to end like. It all depends on us. Our life, our journey. But truthfully, what do we really want in life? What does it lead to? Why are we born into this world? Why do we need to be successful, famous, well-known, rich, powerful, etc.. etc.. ? Why do we need that? Do we really need that? Is life like a burning flame on a candle, waiting to be blown away or blew out by itself. It is really that meaningless? There are so many question I want to ask. But what's the point? There's nothing to it for me. I'm just a nobody from nowhere.

A nobody that thinks that, its time for her, to start making her life, not as worthless as how she sees the world. The reason why everything is so pathetic is for you to make yourself wonderful, feel good about it, and know the reason why you're living your life now. Appreciate it, because that's what the Mastermind wants us to do. He wan't us to appreciate everything we have. Cause He doesnt want us to feel left out or regret something in the end.

And some people call God unfair? The one being unfair is you, because you judged him, with ignorance, and arrogance, and He still gives you life, and love. If I was God, for sure you'd be asking for mercy and forgiveness in hell by now. *grrrrrr

It's great that I feel better again. I can talk and talk and talk and smile knowing that how my life seems so blissful and blessful. Thank you, my Love.

Lovesssss.