I won't be selfish and burden my heart with my own thoughts anymore. I'll stay the same, as you wished. No more expectations, no more dreams. Just you and me, just us. I'll love you, I'll stay that way. Cause I do. And whatever will happen next, I don't want to be the one who'll decide. But He will.
Seriously, I'm having trouble with my self. I wan't to solve this, I hate being in dilemmas. but the thing is I don't know how to solve it!
The truth is I love being with you. I need you, I want you. But I know that, I can't have you to myself. I want to, but it doesn't seem possible, I don't want to be selfish, I understand. I know where I stand. I know where I should be, but I don't know how I should feel.
Should I just stay the same, as you want me to be, or should I just ignore the fact that I need you in my life, I need to talk to you, to hold your hands, to listen to what you'll say, to just see your eyes, or to tease you a bit and see you laugh, annoying me back. To tell you, that I need you, I want you.
It made me wonderful, when I knew about how you've felt. But I still don't know how should I feel, maybe time will decide.
I admit the way I act, has and have actually, hurt people, I've broken hearts, plenty of hearts, in many ways it's not that I'm playing with it, it's just the way I express my love and my care for it, that it sometimes, misunderstood me, misjudged me, and spend all their space for me, until it went blooming for me, but mine, was still pale. Was still empty, was still, plain white.
It was always me, always about the way that I react for it, the way that i treat it, that would somehow made it went overfilling with extra whipped cream and plenty of cherries on top of it
But, has anyone, has ever made me feel that way? to do something that'd make my heart bloom all year round or triple extra whipped cream and strawberries and even more and more and plenty more to offer just to satisfy me?
And to have nothing more in their mind, except to just love me, No wedding rings, or kids together, or even a house by the beach, just to love me, and to know that I love them back. because by then, I definitely will.
When I was younger I saw my daddy cry And curse at the wind He broke his own heart And I watched As he tried to reassemble it
And my momma swore that She would never let herself forget And that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love If it does not exist
But darling, You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception
Maybe I know, somewhere Deep in my soul That love never lasts And we've got to find other ways To make it alone Keep a straight face
And I've always lived like this Keeping a comfortable, distance And up until now I had sworn to myself that I'm Content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk
Well, You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception
I've got a tight grip on reality But I can't Let go of what's in front of me here I know you're leaving In the morning, when you wake up Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream
Ohh
You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception You, are, the only exception
And I'm on my way to believing Oh, And I'm on my way to believing
You know how I feel? I'm not sure, but somehow, I feel like I should tell you, that I can't sleep at night without having you in my mind, and the slightest most smallest hope of just having your smell, your perfume, can actually calm me down. Because it's from you, that everything is just, so wonderful.
I already miss you so deeply, even when you just left me, for just half and hour ago that you went away, went back to where you're needed. It's okay, I'll wait for my turn.
I want your perfume. I want your smell, so that I could be apart of you, apart of the person, that I miss all the time, It's gonna kill me if I don't see you in front of me, For a certain period, but at least when I have your smell, it'll restain myself from suicide.
I'll miss you. Don't worry, I won't forget you, How can I forget you?? my breathing mechanism? My most important part of the body? My most valuable treasure God has bestowed upon me, My life?
It'll only happen if only I went cuckoo, or I accidentally lost my mind, Which I certainly know would never happen! other than that, never!
