Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Hello Hello ?


Hey,

I wonder what happened to the German boy that would always comment on my posts,

I don't have his comments on my facebook wall, or even in my inbox anymore.

I miss that boy, where the hell did he dissappear?

Oh Please be back soon, I miss you.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Me, me, Me !

Somehow, sometime this week, or maybe it was a couple of days ago.
I realise that I don't need to lie to myself, anymore.
I realise that I am the type that like to comfort others, but not myself.
I've been lying to myself, all this time.
I need to wake up.
I need to straighten things up.
I need to be bold, and more sure of myself.
I need to stop talking shit about others,
and stop thinking about what others may think, or say.
I have my own life.
They're nothing but jealous.
I need to start making me feel good.
I need to be, me.

How is me? I don't even know.
Eventually we will all learn about her when time comes. Or when time passes by.
Weeeeeeeee~

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Love note


"Love doesn't make the world go round,
is what makes the ride worth while."

"I wish we could be together,
today, tomorrow and always."

You know what?
Me too.


Lets play a game of guessings

Guess what day is today

Guess what I did last night

Guess who got drunk last night

Guess who gave me what yesterday

Guess what colour is my new watch

Guess
what I drank last night

What I ate

whom I kissed

whom I laughed at

whom I was pissed at

Where I slept

What time I slept

Where I was at 5 am

and

what time I woke up today

Guess what I am wearing now,

thinking of,

feel

and last

Guess what I got today.

a birthday card.

From who?

Guess guess guess !

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

What I dreamt last night

Last night I dreamt of being somewhere quite familiar, a shopping mall. Where things in the dream were more chilled out, the feeling of when I was in the US, more relaxed, less problems, less reality dramas, just full of shits, and happy happy stuff. I was walking, then in the dream, guess who's in it. yeah I was quite shocked too. It was Kenta. Yeah my lil Kengo. In the dream, we were holding hands, and we were walking while talking, then I saw some roadshow about prom dresses, and both of us planned out to get into one, and get ourselves pictures of it. Both of us laughed. Both of us missed each other so much, in the dream. In reality, I miss him so much. Time just passes by fast, I didn't even realise. Then in the dream, he was holding my hand, taking me down an elevator, to victoria secret, then I said, oh yeah Kenta, ofcourse you would know where VS is?! haha. It was funny, we both laughed. Then I told him how much I missed going into VS and just do nothing but to smell parfums, or just to look at new stuffs that's just in. It's just fun that way. And knowing Kenta, he would make faces when I would show him 'rare' or weird stuffs in it. And sometimes, he would just say, lets go to Abercombie, again. Haha oh I miss those times. I wish I could do it again, with the same person, at the same mall, and maybe have starbucks java chip again, or even passion tea. Or even Panda Express.
With my lil Kengo. I miss my lil Kengo.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Laugh of the day .

Home called. Just now.
My lil brother was on the line,
asking me what was I up to.
So I said I was studying.
Then he asked again, searching for confirmation.
Sis, what are you doin, so I answered, I'm studying.

Then suddenly, he laughed, so bad.
And said, You! Studying? Ibu, sis is studying!

Wtf. great, lil brother. I love you so much !

Geram !



AGHHH I miss my lil brother!
And my lil sister.
And ibu.
my room, my bed, my awesome clothes!
Arghhhh!
I wanna bite someone!

Called home, everybody's sick.
Oh shit.
Just hope they'll get better soon.
:(

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Julio

It's July, already.
I'm studying - trying at least.
I couldn't get this thing into my head. I mean I want to study, but it just doesn't wanna go in.
WTF

Well worse can happen.
I'm sleepy now, kinda.
Wonder why? Slept for almost 9 hours but it's just not enough.
I need to study, mid-terms are coming up this Tuesday.

Owh, btw, I'm so freaking out, cause my birthday's coming - soon!
WTF, why am I freaking out?
Cause I think my friends are planning out something, that'll surely be bad. OMG.
I just hope there's no egg and flour involve though, ergh the thought just made me more and more nervous.

Ergh I'm turning 19 soon. So soon right?
Wait, I feel like I'm just 17, why is it my age's 19? I don't want to be 19, I want to be 17. :(

Somehow, lately I think of father alot. I miss him. Wonder why.
Maybe I just do. The thought made me feel as if I'm living in this fantasy world, denying all the shit and crap that's going on with my life, avoiding reality, and running away from it.
Yeah, that's how I feel now. I just can't get out of myself. My crappy self.

I feel bad, I feel stupid.
I'm feeling sorry for ibu. I'm sorry for her, for having me.
I need to change. I have to change. It's time laaah.
I love you, and I miss you.
Guess this world wont last that long eyh, but surely, my love will.

Well,
Hello July.