Hipocracy, hipocracy

I hate hipokrits. I seriously do! They make me sick to the stomach.

I just hate the fact that they pretend to be super nice in front of you, but the fact is that they just bitching bout you all the time! Who cares bout them?

The truth is, I dont give a damn about them, but the thing that makes me mad is that I have these type of people in my bloodline! And it makes me more sad when I realise that all the nice things they said to me was a total lie!

I just hope they would get what they want and they would be happy for what they have done. God bless them lah!

Well damn with those people. I don't want to make my life miserable thinking about those kind of people. It'll cause me more heartbreak, pain in the ass, increasing for my total hairloss for thinking so much, loss of appetite, pimples will start growing on my face due to unbalanced raging hormones and alot of other complications for me!

Starting from now, at this very moment, I dont wana give a F**K about you people.

So please, go to hell :)

Thank you my loves

I feel better.

What was I thinking before?

I was always okay, it's just that, I wasn't handling my father's death very well. I felt sad and upset, because I wanted to do more things with him, but since he's not here anymore, I can't.

Come on, it's okay.

If I can't do it with him, I can always do it. Maybe with someone else. Someone. Anyone?

Well I'm okay now. Like I said, I feel better!

And well, I think next time, I should handle my emotions wiser.

Stupid Liyana, making everybody sad, and worried.

I'm sorry my loves. I didn't mean to. Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.

What's wrong with me?

I'm not myself lately, got upset easily, I dont think I feel very confident about myself anymore, lately I feel down, i drive the car like shit, seriously I cant even park the car properly, I always think of things that I never thought of before, like how thinner I got as I would not look good in my clothes, or something stupid like that.

Man, I sounded lame and annoying lah.

But what else can I do, I dont know what's wrong with me.

I want my old self back, confident, and dontgiveadamn about what people think of me.

Oh god.? Help me please.

Alhamdulillah

Losing the ones you love will make you a stronger person. Just know that death is a reminder for the living ones, that soon, one day, we will die too. Death ends a life, but not a relationship. Dont stop your life when you lose someone, but keep living, because the person has already found his peace, so feel happy for him, because maybe if he's still living in this world, he was suffering, and suffocating, so let it be that now is the time for him to rest and sleep. Cry for them, yes we can grief when we lose a person we love, but instead of putting a stop to your life by being sad and mourne all the time, where it doesn't and won't bring you anywhere, live your life to the fullest, treat people with more respect, and by keeping the person in your mind, heart and prayers, that will be more than enough as they will forever be remembered, and the memories will still live on.

Remember, that everything happens for a reason, and a cause. Look at things by many points of view. And look at things, at a bigger picture. Try to find the positive in everyting. Believe in God lah. He's always there for you.

I'm just so forever grateful that my father passed away so peacefully, may he has found the peace he had been waiting for, and may Allah bless his wonderful soul. Yesterday was a very sad day for all of his family and friends. His memory will still live on with us, as a father, a brother, a friend, an uncle, and a great man we all know him.

I am sad, but I'm also glad, that he has now gone back to where he came from. And I think he's a very lucky guy, to have children that took good care of him when he was not in his good shape, love him so very much despite everything, and even look up to him as an idol.

You will always be in my prayers, may Allah bless your soul. And may you have found the peace, away from this fake, disruptive and sad sad world. All this time,you've done everything you can to make our lives better, so now, go rest, for we will take care of ourselves, from what we've learnt from you and your experiences in life.

I love you , I always do, and I hope you know that. Thank you for everything, bapak.

News!

Got news from Mr.nini that maybe, he's probably coming here and see me in a month! Im so damn excited. And if it is really confirmed, I'm seriously goin to screammmmm! I just dont know what to say! i'll be speechless. But for now, chill chill. Relax. Breathe. breathe.